很烦

这次没有华丽的文字，只剩朴素的记载叙述。


刚接到小婶的电话，她说星期二才汇款进户口。
同时带来一个晴天霹雳的消息。


原来我妈妈在外头吃了那么多黄莲，有理说不清，有口难言。
其实我也知道千里迢迢“跳飞机”到日本工作的辛苦。
当中总会过着些不像人过的生活。
只是没想到这次竟然发生了人神共愤的事情！！
那个怡保来的安娣~！太过分了！
她冤枉我妈偷了她三万日元。然后在深夜里无情地把我妈赶出门外。
毫无头绪、弱小可怜的一个女流之辈，求救无门。
只好 暂居朋友家咯。
但是毕竟朋友家很小，小得连纳出睡觉的地方都难。
而我妈竟然睡在衣橱！！！ 
已经连续几晚了！！

真是委屈她了。我听到时眼泪都快夺眶而出了。
现在，她朋友要回大马了。
我妈就急着找房子。
身上的钱已不够，她还是想要寄钱回来。（她说她坚持她的原则是因为她已经两个月没寄钱了）

这一边，我的小叔其实也只是他一个人在工作。
他自己还有两个女儿。大女儿下个月要出嫁了。
小女儿还在独中求学。
开销花费也不少，再加我们兄妹三个，
真的是一个头，两个大！


妈~如果你真的是那么辛苦就不要再做了。
回来吧~！
如果真的要让我继续读书，也要办完离婚手续才好办事。
我可以完成 Diploma 后去工作。
如果要申请贷款，我需要那张离婚证书。

 我真的好烦。心好乱、好痛、好辛酸。
我突然看不到前方的去向。
我的未来扑簌迷离充满迷惘。
我快撑不住了。眼泪都流干了。
悲剧一旦上演，一发不可收拾，超乎我们的想象。

自杀是最愚蠢的解决方法。

割咗没？

晴朗的午后，思绪被一阵叫声打搅。

  “你妈最近都没有上网吗？”
  “她刚搬家那边没有线。”
  “哦~酱我就要去割我的线了，每个月要百多块啊。”
  “嗯。”

我不能多说什么。我猜小婶只是通知我而不是询问意见。
顷刻，突然心血来潮踩了机车的油门飞奔到理发店。
 
  “修头发，旁边短，前面留。”

理发师连声应好，指着椅子的方向示意我坐下稍等。
几下敏捷的身手、淡定的反应、高超的剪技，一个焕然一新的造型映入眼帘。
（其实也不是很好看，整个脸很臃肿，我的妈呀！）
我不假思索地付了钱（因为想快点离开），心里还是想着那条线。

人家广告最近都很激烈。
  “你割咗没？” “Potonglah” 的声音不时在脑海盘旋。

回家后彻底地清洗一番，似乎想洗去一身的秽气。
趋前看镜子里的我强颜欢笑，使命地挤出一抹笑容，但是还是渗透了一丝失落。

哦~ 算了吧！
少上网又不会少一根毛。没有尝用过电脑和网际网络的人更辛苦。
理智点。成熟点。看开点
做人要知足常乐，换个角度想，秉持客观思维，平衡心理。
身在福中要知福 、惜福、造福。
其实只是一件普通事，不足挂齿。割吧！善哉！

TARC-ACCA Investment Game '09

  As what I had mentioned in the previous post about the presentation, we got the announcement of the first-round result last Thursday. I was so excited to download the attachment from e-mail and took a look at it.
well~ It's NOT in the high-lighted row but fell on 9th.
  We needed to accept the reality as we know that we were making the Greatest Loss among the 10. LMAO!! I could not declare that I don't give a fuck about it but to admit that we were still incompetent as compared to others. This could be a precious and jovial experience for all of us. We were pleased that we were once a part of TARC-ACCA Investment Game '09.
  Hereby, I would like to apologise to my members upon my poor management and thanks for your unswerving loyalty. I could see that everyone of us had unleashed our best efforts in making contribution. Glad to  know each and every one of you.
  Congratulation to TOP 4: Achievers, S.I.C, Flexus Fund & Divine Co. Good Luck & All the Best in Final~!! (11Dec09)

With the utmost confidence We Fight We Strive We Compete

Millipede-like posture

H&B~ We.. Can Make It!!

The Company staff

Eventually in Q&A session. We got a question from Dr. Kang SH.

Dr. Kang: I got a little wonder why u chose the name H&B? Is it any special meaning?

H&B CEO: Basically H&B means Honest & Brilliant but on the other way round, can't you see that we are so Handsome and Beautiful?

Dr. Kang nodded her head agreeably. LOL^^

      ======================Bonus=======================

Handsome!!

Beautiful!!

See~! They messed up my hair >.<

Mrs. KNM closed her eyes =.=

He looked happy to be bullied. lol

His nose got cubit XD

 

The Best Actor- A jobless middle-aged man surrounded by depression & despair.

*thumbs up+ big applause+ tears dropped* (too touched by his act =P)

The Left-out

1. LaLa's arrival

  I could not remember the date with great ease but it was the day of arrival of LaLa in Penang.
I went to see her at Sunway Carnival Mall in that humid afternoon with another two friends of mine.

 

2. Went hanging out

  There were Grass, Alice, Sarah, Peng, LanFeng, Ee Lin, Ying Zheng, Cheese-eng and I went hanging out at Prangin Mall one day after our class. We tasted food. We window-shopped. (well~only YZ bought a coat-like jacket. LOL) We tried out shirts and snapshoted. We had moments of fun as if we were living in the world of our own. We enjoyed all day long. Eventually we exhausted & went home satisfactorily.

Just managed to grab this from Sarah

3. Birthdays celebration

  A particular night on a peaceful Monday, the Steamboat Restaurant was "chaotically" congested by all of our members. We dined in there and had our celebration for birthday boys and girls. The first half proceeded anonymously and the drama started to reach its peak gradually when the first half gave way to the second half.

  With a soft but audible 'pop' sound, we were embraced by darkness and slightly brightened by the visible light of candles on the cake. It was then followed up by the loud and sharp birthday song. We (Chuen Yuan, Sarah, Peng, Zhi Yek & I) were so surprised to have this happened in our eyes. By the way, they "punished" us to finish the food before we were allowed to leave.

  Later, we were given the options to pick a piece of paper for each person. I got the one with an adorable piggy picture. After that only I realised it was for the distribution of gifts. To be frank, I enjoyed the whole night and was grateful to have the meal, gift, unforgettable reminiscence and memoriable moments there. Most of all I was pleased that my friends even asked them to play songs of Lee Hom during the entire process. Even when we were on the way home, the melodies were still spinning until my mind was jubilantly occupied by lee Hom's voice. Thanks cordially for that celebration. Look forward to having another joyous day that we can spend together. Take care guys!

 

 

Pictures in my head

Try to figure out a picture in your mind. What will be that?
Family comes first.

When I was in Form4@2006

 Mum's currently in Japan

Videoconferencing via Skype

 

 

Sincerely, I'm so guilty that it's been ages since we took our last photos.
I must have had neglected for so long.
but now I come back. Being more appreciating and compassionate.
I've been so obedient since my younger days.
People tended to be so sarcastic & rumours spreaded making us pathetic.
We gotta fight through it my lovely family.
You are the noble truth I believe most!


Nonetheless, friends are also parts of my pictures.
Thanks cordially for appearing in my life and filling up my reminiscence.
You gave me strength when I am weak.
You light up my life when it is dark.
Friends in need are friends indeed.
With your faith, I swear to myself that I cannot fall.
You are the best companions in my past and future days!
That is it. ^^

Sin

Like what my friend says, we have expressive faces so we cannot hide our feelings.
Even though we are trying hard to hide it, people still have the ability to discover it up which resembles the activities done in Discovery Channel.

I was so busy preparing for tests, semi-final presentation and should have no time for blogging.
But my intention burst out this morning. In the Commercial Law tutorial class.
I was told that I'm having test next week. I wasn't startled by the dated day and time but the content that I need to study. Frankly, this is the first time I sit for law paper and it is still within my expectations but I do not actually know what will be going next.

When it was the class, tutor asked questions about the syllabus she taught. Surprisingly all of us were blur.
Tutor seemed so angry and almost lost her temper (although she did not show up). I could feel the tension. I could breathe the stiffness hanging in the air. I felt guilty and sinful as I did not revise Law last few days and I was also unable to as I have been having flu since last Friday.
Anyhow, I paid the full attention in class with my eyes widely opened in the hope that I did not miss any words she wrote. With my ears to channel the sound wave into my eardrum. Before the class came to an end, she assigned us some homework.

I was sad because I did not get prepared. I breached the contract of being a student. I like law even it is a wee bit hard. That's why I was ashamed of my misbehaviours. Even she noticed that I wasn't look pleasant and asked me "why you're so depressed?" when the tutorial ended.

Hope this will be a motivator that I promise to myself. Thanks for your support guys. I wasn't having consciousness all day long. Forgive my misspoken words. Lord~ please forgive my sin and I'll be a better Man.

*As my soul heals the shame I would grow through this pain*

All the best

As we  are following the schedule, the coming Friday is the time for our presentation of ACCA-TARC Investment Game 2009. It is a "semi-final" where the TOP 10 will compete with each other and convince the judges in order to enter into TOP 4.

I would like to thank my members and those who had helped during the investment period especially Ms. H.L. Lim & Ms. C.S. Lim. Your dedication is highly appreciated.

Last but not least, I look forward to seeing the performance of each and every group. Good luck! All the best!