Crave for her

I was walking alone along the straight sun-lit street.
I saw her car when I was heading towards my hostel after dismissal of classes.
Little yellow-whitish kelisa that I used to sit in it once upon a time.
I was surrounded by excitement seeing the familiar numbers appeared in front of me.
My mind was so excited to make a response to my hand
It transmitted messages to my left hand to pick up my mobile phone in my pocket.

I intended to send her a message but
Blankness filled my mind all of a sudden.
Question marks with unknown answers filled my mind, so harshly.
What should I say?
"hey, coming back to visit me is it?"
like this?

Will she entertain my message if I greet her?
I had sent one message at the beginning of new semester.
What I got was nothing.
No reply. No news.
I scared of confronting her.
I scared of awkwardness will freeze in the cool air which makes me hardly breathe.
I hope that it just to be nice if I could try.

Then, will she think that I am making an insult towards her?
Frankly
I miss her as if I am going to suicide when I cannot reach her.
That's sufficient for me to see her face everyday even it's just once.
I got no choice but to hide my feelings away from you.
I was refrained from involving in AMOUR.

**I have seen too much defective examples that's why I am not confident or faith to be in LOVE and I still remember what my mum told my dad that day**

"Please don't go and harm others' daughter IF you are still born in guy for next generation. I am already a victim in this generation."

Voices and chaotic noises came across my mind at once.

Seriously I think I am ineligible to make a match couple with you.
We are from different backgrounds or even worlds.
we are TWO
we are TWO
when will we be ONE?

I am writing this post to remind myself. Maybe time will prove.

Perseverance VS Termination

I chose the former.
Wish me luck.
Regards.