Say it well

 

Is that you? 

 You weren't behaving like that when I first met you.

You talked a lot and we could even go out more often than now.

When I was down, there you came and offered me consolation.

When I was greatly flattered, you shared my happiness together.

But when we're getting closer and closer, I realised that our distance is getting further and further.

We're so close and YET so far.

You couldn't even recognise my mobile number.

For the first time it might be carelessness to save.

The unforgiven second time might be you purposely intended to forget me.

I was unconscious. I'm directionless.

"Is that you? the one I thought I know well?"

The words are still spinning in my mind without leaving me a hint or clue to the answer. 

Is it time? 

As I was always thinking of you, I was always asking myself.

"Is it time to spell it out?"

I hate myself for being disgraceful. For being timid.

I was afraid of heading the steps ahead but I have had no chance anymore.

I thought my feeling would cease to be continuing but it went the opposite way.

I kept asking myself and I told myself not to disclose my feeling and show you my meaning.

Then only I noticed that I was wrong.

Time is precious and it's slipping away. Together with the courage to show you my meaning.

If I could I would. To turn back the time to spend longer with you.

And now only a little hope is being held that all the memory won't just fade away and vanish without a trace. 

Am I right?

There's no right or wrong to be judged.

If there's any, then I'll be the wrongdoer and pleaded you to give a way out.

I was wondering whether what I've decided is right or wrong.

Am I right? Am I doing this right?

I couldn't properly answer this. Because I didn't have the answer in myself as well.

It's an underlying question that needs an accountable answer.

It's regardless of right or wrong.

It's about actions and subsequent consequences after all.

You're the one with pride. I'm the one with dignity.

Wish there's no more "Am I right?"

It's Serve Me Right, then.

                     Just gotta take it easy. It's another blue blue sky.